Chaos Chronicles Entry #2: From Chaos to Conjuring – The Art of Trusting the Unknown

Control is an Illusion – And I Was Obsessed with It 

Agents let’s get one thing straight—I used to be a control freak. Not in the cute, “I just like things a certain way”  kinda way, but in the “I need to micromanage the Universe itself” kinda way. I thought if I just planned hard enough, worked harder, and accounted for every possible outcome, I could guarantee my success. 

Spoiler: That’s not how the game of life works. 

The real conja? The moment I stopped forcing things to happen and started allowing them to unfold, everything changed. Life started moving for me instead of me fighting against it. But letting go? Whew. That was a whole process.

 When the Universe Snatches Your Grip 

There was a point in my life where nothing was going according to my plan. No matter how much effort I put in, doors weren’t opening. Everything I tried to hold onto was slipping through my fingers. And instead of trusting that there was something better on the way, I spiraled. 

I questioned everything. My purpose. My faith. My sanity. 

Because when you’re used to controlling the narrative, letting go feels like free-falling into the unknown. And who voluntarily does that? (Not me, not then.)

But the Universe wasn’t giving me a choice. It was pushing me—hard—into trust. Into surrender. Into understanding that manifestation isn’t about control; it’s about alignment.

Manifestation is an Energy Game

Here’s what they don’t tell you in those aesthetic vision board workshops: You don’t manifest what you want—you manifest what you are. 

You can script, visualize, and affirm all day, but if your energy is rooted in fear, scarcity, or doubt, guess what?  That’s what you’ll keep attracting. And I was a living, breathing example of this. 

The moment I stopped chasing and started aligning, things shifted. Opportunities showed up out of nowhere.  People I needed to meet found me. Money flowed in ways I hadn’t even considered. The Universe was just waiting for me to stop resisting and start trusting. 

The Turning Point: Testing the Universe 

I’ll never forget the moment I fully surrendered. I was at my breaking point—tired, frustrated, and honestly, pissed at Spirit. I literally said out loud,

“Fine. If you want me to let go, then SHOW me why I should trust you.” 

And what happened? 

Within 24 hours, I got a sign so clear it shut me right up. An opportunity I knew was meant for me, but I thought was out of reach, landed in my lap—effortlessly. It was like the Universe said, “See? We got you. Now sit down.” 

That was the day I stopped trying to control every little detail and started co-creating with the Universe instead of   working against it.

Agent Training: How to Let Go Without Freaking Out 

Let’s keep it real—trusting the unknown isn’t easy. But here’s what helped me actually release control without spiraling into chaos: 

1. Shift from “How?” to “Why?” – Stop obsessing over how it will happen and focus on why you want it.  The why keeps you aligned. The how is Spirit’s business. 

2. Act Like It’s Already Done – Walk, talk, and move like the thing you desire is already yours. Because on an energetic level? It is. 

3. Follow the Signs (Without Overanalyzing) – The Universe is always communicating with you. Trust those nudges, those gut feelings, those “random” synchronicities. 

4. Let Go of the Outcome, Not the Vision – You don’t have to lower your dreams—just release your grip on how they come to life. 

5. Test the Universe – If you’re skeptical (I get it), tell Spirit: “If this is real, show me a sign.” And then watch. 

Drop a Comment & Sound Off!

Have you ever had a moment where you let go and things just… fell into place? Or are you still gripping the wheel like your life depends on it? Be honest—I’ve been there too. Let’s talk in the comments. 

And remember, Agents: you don’t have to force what’s meant for you. Just align with it. 

Up Next: Alchemy of Chaos – How I Turned Pain into Power 

We’re getting even deeper in the next Chaos Chronicle. I’m talking spiritual alchemy, shadow work, and how I flipped my struggles into strength. Stay locked in, Agents—it’s about to get real.

Stay unapologetically cosmic and chaotically YOU.

-Your Chaos Conductor